it’s cold but it’s sunny. thank goodness. which means MORE TIME OUTDOORS. double thank goodness. i’ve taken my camera out, and tried to re-aquaint myself. messing about with kids is good practice, and this weekend, i actually stopped someone and asked for a photo. bless him. i forgot how it makes me feel like people must think i’m deranged. which, not too far off… but, for a purpose. i’ll be posting steady this week. that sunshine is powering my mood.
Archive for month: March, 2014
so… sometimes i feel like posting about kids. and momming. i’m someone’s mom. that thought STILL blows me away. i’m responsible for TWO more humans. part of my brain will always be thinking about them (surely some of the reason it no longer works so well). i think i always thought i’d have kids, but no amount of pondering that idea will prepare you for the actuality. you want kids? you wonder why moms you know are just a little… off? i mean, how hard could it be? everyone has been doing it forever… yeah. it’s about 40 times harder than my ‘it’s going to be hard’ imaginings. it changes every day. every day there’s some new something that one of those kids does, and i think. i’m never going to get the hang of this. whatever. none of it is the end of the world. it’s just somewhat exhausting. but every once in a while, my husband or i will say or do something, and i think of the look on the face of my 5 year ago self (no kids). my 10 year ago self (not married). it usually makes me grin. like an idiot. here’s a list of some things that make me smile, and if you’re horrified, remember these things when you come across that poor lady with two screaming kids in target. she could probably use some empathy.
1- it’s just a little bit of poop. on my hand, on their clothes, on the table. i know. i know. it’s disgusting. but i have had the thought- it’s only a little bit, and gone on about my business after a quick hand wash or wipe swipe. does my house need a thorough cleaning? yes. with a fire hose. do i care. not really. (also not worth worrying about- spit up, a little vomit, wee, and nose goblins)
2- let’s meet at the restaurant at 4:30. FOR DINNER. Aggghhhhh. this one still kills me. who eats dinner at 4:30? i do. i have to. i have two kids who have to be in bed no later than 7:30. if we spend an hour and a half at a restaurant, that leaves us an hour to get ready for bed and a half an hour to actually get into bed. do you know how slowly toddlers move? you don’t. or you’d be thinking, i bet we could get to the restaurant at 4.
3- she just threw up all over me. i don’t think i’d ever had the pleasure of getting vomit on any part of my upper body from another human. Read more →